Saturday, April 18, 2009

TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME LORD!

I had this “thing” for this guy (who shall remain nameless!) that to me seemed impossible to break free from or even control for that matter. No matter when he showed up or how he showed up in my life, there I was back in this “thing” again. It would be like no time had passed, no hurt or harm was done, and no love was lost. There I was, ready for yet another “TKO”-or for all you Teddy Pedergrass fans LTKO.

Well at some point, really, at some point, this kind of “thing” has to get old. I mean who wants to keep being the beautiful gem that gets picked up, admired, even considered, only to be put back on the display shelf because you were not the right cut, or worth more than the price they were willing to pay. Well, this particular time it had gotten to that point. I was done, so over it and threw! So as I was driving along the lakefront on LSD (Not the drug! But Lake Shore Drive for my non-Chicagoans) I cried out, “Lord, why don’t you just take it away from me?” I don’t want to feel like this anymore. Why am I always the one who ends up getting hurt and crying?” At this point, I can barely see the road in front of me because I was crying so hard. Almost immediately after my little rant and desperate plea for help I heard him say, “It’s not for me to take away Anji, but for you to give up!” Now my first reaction to this statement was “What!” I mean I was thinking like, “Aren’t you supposed to be the one who delivers me, you know, get rid of stuff in my life that shouldn’t belong there?” But as quickly as that thought came it vanished! And something wonderful happened! It was if a light broke forth within me that allowed me to see through the tears, push pass the pain, and come to the realization that this “thing” I thought I could not be break free from or control actually had no power over me. In fact, it had no power at all! I had the power. It only survived because I allowed it to live. But once I was ready to pull the plug on that bad fella, that “thing” would take its last breath and die! “Wow!” I thought. Lord you’re awesome! So I dried my tears, turned my little self around and went back home! Where I humbly kneeled down on my knees and thanked God for yet again showing me, Me!

Sometimes those “things” in life that seem impossible to break free from are only there because we have not realized the power we possess to overcome them. That power can and only comes from our intimate and open relationship with God. When we surrender to God and draw closer to Him we allow the power of his love to come into our hearts and transform us from the inside out. And when that transformation takes place, all things become possible.

Your act of surrender or giving up of those “things” releases the miraculous power of God to come into your life and change your situation. And all it takes is a willing heart and a confident yet bold step to pull the plug!

“What “thing or things” do you need to be unplugged from today?”